Lord, I'm longing for Your ways

I've had a rough couple of days.  Our neighbor had a serious accident on Friday right in her yard and it has affected me profoundly.  I'm trying to understand why and I think it's because she is the first person in my life that I see almost daily who is facing death square in the face.  I've had grandparents, relatives, fellow church members pass away, but no one who I've had regular contact with.  It's really made me examine my spiritual and personal life and see where I'm lacking.  I just heard this song and the lyrics really spoke to my heart:
 
"Lord, restore the joy I had
I have wandered, bring me back
In this darkness, lead me through
Until all I see is You."
Third Day

All I want to see is You.  I have failed in so many ways, but I know this: God loves His wandering sheep and welcomes them back with open arms.  It's not too late now to seek forgiveness.  I pray that God uses this tragedy to help me to love others more and to seek closeness with Him.

"Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will turn back to You."
Psalm 51:11-13